The Calm Before the Storm

I’ve finally started to calm down from the horrible events of today, and of course… My legs start to act up as I’m pumping gas into the family van. I managed to hold myself up long enough to force myself into the van, (thank god I was using a card!) and now I sit here waiting on my sisters as my legs turn cold. 

I didn’t go in with them because I knew I’d fall. I’m sick of it all. I’m not sure what to do, my neurology appointment isn’t for another 2 weeks.

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Broken

 I’m not sure what happened. He was sleeping on the couch and then went into convulsions. My family managed to get him to come to and he was fine for a full minute. 

That’s when all hell broke lose. He lunged at my mother and my sister had to grab him by the collar. He was biting and snapping and he got my sister on the arms. She got him locked up in a room by himself and we called the vet. 

My father and second-eldest sister are taking care of it now. My niece and nephew are with their biological father because we wanted them safe. All of my other animals are locked in a separate room where they are safe.

I am currently sitting in an Emergency Room and my sister just got called back. I feel broken. I raised him from a puppy the day I rescued him out of freezing rain. He was my butterball. 

I’m not sure what happened because nothing changed in the times before it happened. He’s an inside dog and came in no contact with anything that could have caused this. His food hasn’t changed, either.

I don’t know if I can handle this on top of everything else. My neurology appointment is in 2 weeks. I just healed up from surgery. 

I am worried about everything now. 

My sister got him outside. He’s calmer now. But I can’t take the chance. I don’t know what to do. I can’t bring him inside. I can’t handle this.

About Time!

After many, many phone calls today, I actually managed to get an earlier appointment for my neurology appointment!!! 

I’m pretty sure my primary’s receptionist was upset I did it my damn self. Her explanation for why I hadn’t been called in the last month was she “hadn’t checked it in a while.” 

When I told her about my set appointment, there was pure silence on the other end for a good half a minute before she asked when my appointment was. 

If you’re not going to do your job, I’ll do it myself!!! Obviously you don’t care enough about the patient to try!!! 

She Takes Pictures of the Sun

It’s really foggy this morning heading toward my doctor’s appointment this time! I love eerie, creepy things! Fog (so long as it’s not so bad I can’t see 5ft in front of me) is one of my favorites! I took some pictures, but I wish I had a professional camera. It’s okay, though. I still think they’re pretty.


Don’t Know

So, according to my doctor, it sounds like my breast has gone and filled with fluid again. However, if it keeps doing it this quickly, I need to know why and what to do. 

I can’t keep driving to a place that is over 3 hours away every week, let alone 2 and 3 times a week. It just can’t be done. 

Thankfully, my boyfriend should be getting his car back from the body shop soon and he can just take me. My mother hates driving in big cities that don’t have back roads, and for some reason, all of the actually good hospitals and doctors seem to be in that area. 

It escapes me why I’m surrounded by idiots that seem to have gotten their medical license from the bottom of a cereal box, but in the worst place possible, there are good doctor’s that know what they’re doing and are willing to help you.

I can’t keep doing this. As is, there is a lot of stress going on in my home life, and this doesn’t help in the slightest. 

Interesting

It has, uh.. been an interesting morning. On the way home for dropping off my boyfriend at work, felt a little off so I turned my head and saw a little white car on it’s side deep in a ditch surrounded by trees. So I turn around as my sister is an RT and she was in the car just off of work. 

So we check things out, soon police and paramedics came and they had to get the Jaws of Life to cut the woman free. 

That is the door they are holding up in the ditch, by the way. The car was trying to roll so the firetrucks had to attach it to their wenches.